My Dearest Littlest One

Although you have now been in my belly for 16 weeks, it doesn't feel that long. It took me so long to tell others about you that I can't believe that the halfway point is approaching already. I can no longer hide the fact that you exist. You swell in my belly and I know my body will never be the same. I know that I seem quiet and reserved about you with others, but just know that I am completely at peace with the knowledge of you and what you are to be. I just want you to be healthy. Boy or girl, I already love you!

As I watch your brothers grow, I have rivers of happiness run through me. They are so amazing, but I miss the littleness of them now. You will be our last, so I will treasure every bit of the littleness of you. I know that it will be over all too fast, and you will running around with them.

There is something different about the last time around. I know what it feels like to be done having children--I know you will be all I can handle. I feel more in control of the situation that I did with any of your brothers. I feel confident that I have survived the "baby" stage twice (and twice over) and I know that whatever comes my way, we will get through it together, you and me.

As I start to sit here in puddles, I eagerly await your coming. I hope to find out your gender soon so I know how to prepare rooms upstairs for your coming. I know February is a long way away, but I will treasure every minute this time, and try not to worry so much, as I know God has His hand in all of this. You are exactly the child He wants me to have, and I am exactly the parent He wants you to have.

I love you!
Mommy
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